Saturday, May 4, 2013

UNIT 10 - Final Thoughts



1. Review your unit 3 personal assessment of your psychological, physical, and spiritual well-being. Reflect on these areas. How did you score yourself on a scale from 1 to 10 in unit 3? How do you score yourself now? Has the score changed? Why or why not?


Based on my honest reflections, I am still far from my goal of optimal wellbeing.  My ratings:

Physical Wellbeing – 5, Spirit Wellbeing – 3, Psychological Wellbeing – 7 ; are still relatively accurate depending on which day you ask me and what challenges I am faced with.  I understand real change takes time, consistency and persistence. I do consider myself more knowledgeable and better prepared than before.  And at this point I have great tools to improve my physical well-being.  I am taking things one step at a time, celebrating more small accomplishments.  With these little celebrations, I am more motivated and there is less negative self-talk.  I didn’t become who I am in 6 weeks – I can’t expect to change overnight.


2. Review the goals and activities you set for yourself in each area. Have you made progress toward the goals? Explain.

My goals:

Physical Wellbeing Goal – Get a minimum of 7 hours of sleep per night.  The sleep deficit directly impacts my workout, my outlook and my eating habits.  I have managed to improve in this area.  It has helped.  On occasion when I have trouble sleeping I notice a marked difference

 

Spiritual Wellbeing Goal – Seek out guidance in others.  My journey so far has been solitary and it is important to open up to others for guidance. I still have to work towards this goal and get myself on the right track by opening up my heart and mind. 

 

Psychological Wellbeing Goals – Allow myself to be vulnerable – ask for help – I don’t have to go through things alone.  I am working towards eliminating the chatter.  I am also taking active steps to set boundaries. 


3. Have you implemented the activities you chose for your well-being in each of the three areas? Explain.

I have
started to implement the loving-kindness exercise. This has proven more difficult than others.  Some activities (spiritual and psychological) are taking a little longer to get into than others, but overall I find that I am making progress. I am gaining ground in quieting and training the mind- though meditation and through swimming. I am expanding my knowledge, learning about eastern philosophy.  I am focused on savoring the gifts in my life and making conscious choices with my time, my diet, my relationships, and taking on my goals with a positive attitude and mentally visualizing the life I want.



4. Summarize your personal experience throughout this course. Have you developed improved well-being? What has been rewarding? What has been difficult? How will this experience improve your ability to assist others?
This course has challenged me at times!   I have overcome many obstacles and have been forced to re-examine my preconceived ideas.  In some ways my ideas have been confirmed and in others I still find myself a bit at odds. One positive is focusing on forgiveness and gratitude.  I have used this a number of times during this class with situations that have presented themselves and it has been helpful for me. Mediation and yoga have continued to be beneficial. This experience has made me realize just how much we take for granted in life.  I am determined to stay on the path to integral healing.   I will feel fulfilled once I can share this joy, peace and calm with those around me.



I wish everyone good health as you continue to grow spiritually, physically and psychologically.


 

Namaste –

 

Saturday, April 27, 2013

Unit 9 - Whew .... made it


 

I.                   Introduction

Why is it important for health and wellness professionals to develop psychologically, spiritually and physically? What areas do you need to develop to achieve the goals you have for yourself?

The teacher must also be a student – willing to learn – willing to grow – willing to impart knowledge and examine their own short comings.   To truly understand a patient and the source of their suffering, health care professionals must know what aspect of the patient’s life to look at for the source of the problem (Schlitz, Amorok & Micozzi, 2005). Another aspect to consider is that “optimal wellness/flourishing is self-cultivated rather than reliant upon extrinsic healing” (Dacher, 2006).  It takes work within one’s self to flourish, and this is an ongoing pursuit.   

A wellness professional cannot treat the whole person without understanding and implementing integral health techniques themselves. “That means the holder of the tool kit, the practitioner himself or herself must enter the transformative process, we must change ourselves if we are to change the medicine we are practicing” (Dacher, 2006, p. 166). The areas that are needed to develop and achieve the goals are the diagram for providing a holistic and integrated approach to health.  Holistic, evolutionary, intentional, person-centered, and dynamic principles provide the plan to understanding mind/body medicine.

Psychologically: Professionals must grow psychologically, keeping an open mind and considering new perspectives and methods to achieve wellness.

 Spiritually: Spirituality in the sense that they acknowledge a higher power. There is something that exists beyond what our 5 senses can perceive: a state of mind, a being, or a place.

 Physically: A professional must be physically healthy.  Being in good physical condition sets an example for your clients/patients.

 Personally I need to continue to develop in all three areas. Physically, psychologically and spiritually.

Physically I am on the right path. I exercise regularly, I am changing my eating habits and learning about nutrition, and my energy level has increased – but it is a daily quest and old habits are hard to shake.

Psychologically I need to work on managing stress and my perception of what is stressful. I am very hard on myself and need to be more forgiving.  I need to initiate meditation and the subtle mind techniques on a daily basis, no matter how busy or chaotic life gets.

Spiritually, I need to find a connection to something greater. I didn’t fully recognize the importance of developing spiritually until taking Creating Wellness and dealing with some looming issues in my life.

 

  II. Assessment

How have you assessed your health in each domain? How do you score your wellness spirituality, physically, and psychologically?

In my personal assessment, I think each area is in need of development for me to achieve the goals I have.  I can use improvement in all three, psychological, spiritual, and physical.  Achieving complete wellness in a never ending quest, there will always be a higher level of wellness to work towards.  As I have continued to learning more about integral healing, meditation, and the new concepts I have learned in this and other classes, these areas will improve with life practice, becoming part of my daily life.

On a 1-10 scale: 

Spiritually:  3     Physically:  5   Psychologically:  6

Spiritually, I feel like I live at a 3.  This is the area that I need most improvement.  I get caught up in the world and honestly don’t look to this usually until things are difficult. I need to work on this immediately and think about the gratitude I have for my life and all of the blessings I have instead of the challenges.  It is always in my heart, but sometimes I don’t make enough effort to keep it in my thoughts.  There are opportunities to be grateful in “every moment.” (Schlitz & Amorok, 2005) 

Physically, I have improved significantly in the past 3 years. I am halfway there. I have lost almost 60 pounds but recognize that I sometimes stall and I still have 40 more pounds to g.   I exercise three to four times a week most weeks, I swim and do aqua yoga. I hired a personal trainer to do strength training out of the water and unfortunately my back was not ready for it.  I am not as happy with my physical appearance as I would like, particularly my midsection, this seems to be the last place I am losing weight.  I try to eat healthy for the most part.  I need to increase my fruits and vegetables but my portion control is in great shape.  I understand I am a work in progress.

Psychologically, I have overcome so many struggles in the past two years. I gave myself a 6 because I am more than halfway there.  I am very proud of myself for overcoming so many life changing events through my own mental strength and will. In the past three years, I sustained a major breakup, a criminal trial, the loss of a job and most life altering, the loss of my mother after a 3 month battle with cancer. I did not allow myself to sink into a dark place – I instead made it my mission to live the life I wanted.  I went to therapy – got help from my doctor – went to acupuncture, improved my health and found various new ways to cope. But I also know my self-esteem suffers at times.  I allow myself to get too overwhelmed at times.  Sometimes all I see are my shortcomings and I am inpatient with myself.  It is the area that I feel I need the most focus at this time.     I believe this part of why relationships elude me. I am still putting too much energy into what others think of me.

 III. Goal Development

List at least one goal you have for yourself in each area: Physical, Psychological (mental health) and Spiritual.

 

 

 

Physically:  My goal for my physical self would be to lose the remaining 40 pounds. I am still far from within the normal range. Losing 40 pounds would put me in the mid-range of normal (Health Check Systems.com).  I would like to improve my diet, cutting down on dairy and meat products and having a nutrition plan mostly comprised of vegetables, fruit and whole grains.  Ultimately I would like to stop eating meat, but I am working my way there.   I am already utilizing Dacher’s suggestion, using my physical workout as a time for my mental workout as well.  I think this is why swimming has the benefits it does for me, it exercises both mind and body.

Psychologically:  Using Dacher’s concept, “Skillful Action,” I will work on training my mind to work in the way I need it to.  I am beginning to use the mental exercises we have practiced in class.  I am confident I could have a much improved level of psychological wellness.  I hope  to “find happiness that begins with us and then keep cultivating it until it is huge and unreserved, and does not hinder even during life’s unexpected events” (Dacher, 2006).  I want to be in control of my emotions instead of reacting to situations (Schlitz, Amorok & Micozzi, 2005).

 

 Spiritual: Through meditation and reaching out to people who are spiritually grounded, I need to find that something that makes me feel connected (Dacher, 2006). I do not know if that will be God, religion, nature, or something else, but I want to find that higher power, that I can feel in my daily life.  I want to live with more gratitude.  I want to share my spirituality and gratitude with my family.  “Psychological development becomes a springboard for spiritual development” (Dacher, 2006) Once I eliminate the mental chatter, I believe there will be an improvement in spiritual development, with greater understanding (Dacher, 2006).

 

 IV. What strategies can you implement to foster growth in each of the following domains: Physical, Psychological, and Spiritual.  Provide at least two examples of exercises or practices in each domain. Explain how you will implement each example.

 

Physical:

Strategies include creating a more consistent water workout with measurables for progress.  Right now I don’t have a measure to see where I am as opposed to where I was 6 months ago.   I will also add hiking.  This will serve two purposes – I need to get outside and enjoy the beautiful city that I live in and it will create a social activity for me – where I am accomplishing my physical goals while developing relationships with like-minded people.  (Waehner, 2005).  Another strategy is planning my meals – instead of looking for the right thing to eat at the last minute, I can take control and know that I am eating right.

Psychological:

 In order to achieve greater psychological wellness, I will practice visualization along with my meditation exercises as part of my daily routine to help control stress. Each morning I will sit quietly before I begin my day. “Meditation is a way of training and transforming the mind, for our concentration to become clear we need tee right conditions, namely freedom from outer distractions” (Willis, 2002). Affirmations have become part of my meditation as well. I mentally say them and visualize what is being said and with that I feel a sense of rejuvenation.  A second strategy is to practice the subtle mind exercise (Dacher, 2006). This will help me achieve a sense of peace from my chaotic work environment. This is something I will make time for during my lunch break.  Instead of sitting at my desk, I will venture down to the beach and take advantage of my surroundings.

 

Spiritual:

 This strategy is most challenging for me. I believe hiking for exercise and leaving my office to go on the beach will benefit me spiritually. The beauty and serenity of the ocean will allow me to feel connected.  There was a time where I moved to Memphis and there was no beach, I remember how seeing the ocean made me feel – like an old friend who understood me in ways I could not express. The other strategy I will use for spiritual growth is the Loving-Kindness exercise (Dacher, 2006). This exercise is a beginning, when we first did this I felt ridiculous at first, but I have tried it again and my perspective has changed. I will continue to practice and see if this helps.

 

 V. Commitment:

How will you assess your progress or lack of progress in the next six months? What strategies can you use to assist in maintaining your long term practices for health and wellness?

 

I have always journaled or blogged without purpose.  I will use my journal as a tool to track how I feel about my physical, psychological and spiritual growth. The journal can also be an outlet for stress by writing down the negative thoughts and feelings and getting rid of them (Dacher, 2006).

 

 In order to develop and maintain my long-term practices for health and wellness, I will put my goals out in the universe. I have found when you let others know what you are working towards, you are more likely to stick with it. I am surrounded by resources and the lifestyle where I live has an abundance of people and places that will support my goals.  I have already invested by pursuing my education, but must also invest my time and personal resources. I will keep an open mind and try some of new techniques.

 

I plan to use commitments, to myself, working toward the goals I have for myself.  These vows come from Dacher, they are:

 

 “I commit myself to:

Enter a personal process of self-development.  I recognize that this requires an inward turn that is supported by the necessary changes in my outer life and is grounded in regular contemplative practice.

 

 

 

 

·         Study, understand, and integrate an integral vision and its principles and practices into my personal and professional life.

·         To hold a vision of health and healing whose final goal is health, happiness, and wholeness – a possibility that exists for every person regardless of individual circumstances. 

·         Uphold the ethical principles of a spiritual life; eliminate suffering and promote peace, health, happiness, and wholeness for ourselves and others.

·         Meet every individual as a unique sacred being.

·         Develop through personal contemplative practice a healing presence that is acknowledging, comforting, reassuring, safe, nonjudgmental, and infused with loving-kindness.

·         Acknowledge and support the innate healing capacities in each individual.

 

  Hold all life as unique and precious.

 In assessing my personal commitment, what comes to mind is Dacher’s final chapter.  “It is difficult to clear a new path.  Yet, here and there, we must remember to take a deep breath and to focus inward in order to remember who we really are, why I am compelled to write this book, and you to read it."  (Dacher, 2006)

 

 

 

 

 

References

 Dacher, Elliott S., M.D. (2006). Integral Health, the Path to Human Flourishing.

http://www.healthchecksystems.com/heightweightchart.htm

Schlitz, Marilyn; Amorok, Tina; Micozzi, Marc S. (2005). Consciousness & Healing: Integral Approaches to Mind-Body Medicine.

Waehner, Paige, 2005. Take it Outside. About.com, January 3, 2005.

Willis, R. Wayne, 2002. Hope Notes, 52 Meditations to Nudge Your World. Westminster John Knox Press
 

BLOGS I POSTED IN FOR THIS UNIT:

Friday, April 19, 2013

Unit 8


 

1.       Review the exercises and practice sessions you have completed in this course (Loving Kindness, Subtle mind, Visualization, meditation etc.) Choose two practices that you have determined to be most beneficial. How can you implement these practices in your personal life to foster “mental fitness”? Provide specific examples
       Most of the exercises have been challenging at best, but there are two that have worked especially well for me,
the meditation and subtle mind.

Meditation requires time and persistence, but once I made a commitment to practice daily,  I found amazing results. I have noticed improved stress reduction, peace of mind, greater confidence and increased energy. It doesn’t take very long but it’s lasting effects help me get through very stressful days and sets the tone.

The subtle mind exercise is helpful to me when I am really stressed out or feeling overwhelmed.  I do this to calm down and think about the ocean waves crashing on the shore. This has helped me tremendously throughout this course and the past few weeks.  I have been faced with so many challenges.  This is an exercise, I will continue to practice once the course ends.

I posted at

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Unit 7 - Seventh Inning Stretch - MInd, Body and Soul

Seventh Inning Stretch - Time to stand up and get ready for the next 3 weeks.... Life and it's obstacles are trying to keep me from getting there, but I'm still here...  Here we go!


Complete the Meeting Aesclepius mp3 (located in the Doc Sharing area). Describe your meditative practices for the week and discuss the experience. Explain how mindfulness or meditation has fostered an increase in your psychological or spiritual wellness. How can you continue to apply these practices in your life to foster greater health and wellness?


My meditation has been so key to getting through this past week.  I have been faced with so many challenges.  I have come to realize that this can foster my spiritual growth.  Meditation is becoming a daily activity -  and the focus of my meditation has evolved and morphed into something different. I believe that physical, emotional and mental health needs should be examined so that I can assess where I am in my development. Meditation has allowed me to identify my triggers and has helped me become more of a witness in my own mind. It has become easier to change the way I process things throughout the day and go into a state of serenity when I am faced with stress or challenge.

 

Describe the saying: "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself" (p.477). How does this apply to the health and wellness professional? Do you have an obligation to your clients to be developing your health psychologically, physically, and spiritually? Why or why not? How can you implement psychological and spiritual growth in your personal life?

I say this often. When my son was in 7th grade he would complain about his track coach, a middle aged overweight man who would yell at the kids and tell them to “suck it up”.  In addition to my formal education, I have become focused on self-awareness and developing myself in all areas;  physically, emotionally, spiritually.   It’s like being a personal trainer with a beer belly.  It doesn’t inspire much confidence.  I can’t coach or mentor others until I walk the walk and understand my own misgivings and challenges.  I want to instill a sense of confidence.  Authenticity and credibility are intangibles when it comes to helping others.

My personal goals include a healthier diet,  exercise mental and physical. Meditation is an integral part of my life and has allowed me to jump personal hurdles in my stress management.  Spiritually, I am gaining ground – just by examining my beliefs and trusting what my heart tells me. 

Classmates I have posted in:
http://yahweysinspirationalcoffeebreak.blogspot.com/2013/04/hello-everyone-during-meeting.html?showComment=1366003342598#c6492754942430145330

http://lashind.blogspot.com/2013/04/u7-always-learning-and-growing.html#comment-form

Friday, April 5, 2013

unit 6 - universal loving kindness

1. Practice the universal Loving Kindness (meditation) exercise on p. 93.

Ok, so I tried this and struggled (as usual) it was too overwhelming to try and focus on everyone (think back to my difficulties with the previous Loving Kindness exercise). So, I narrowed it down to the immediate people in my life. It made it a little easier to focus on my immediate family. My 19 year old son – came to mind. Things have been trying with him lately, he's  flexing his grown up muscles, making decisions I’m not crazy about, but still trying to do the right thing. So my mind has been crammed with thoughts of making sure he’s on the right path.  It’s exhausting, I may worry too much and it may just be that what he’s doing is age appropriate.  There, more positive.  I also began to focus on my 14 year old daughter, who has made it her mission to roll her eyes every time I speak to her.  I know this is just what I should expect at her age – but two teens in the house can make it crazy. I finally started to focus some positive energy on both of them and felt myself begin to relax. It was challenging but at some point I relaxed and let go.  Aromatherapy would have made this so much easier.

2. Complete the Integral Assessment discussed in chapter 11 (p.115)


This assessment was very enlightening. My psychospiritual aspect of life needs significant improvement. I am relatively emotionally stable, but I feel so much pressure as a single parent, fulltime student with a very stressful work environment. I want to be supportive and nurturing but I feel like I have no support.  I really need to focus on my emotional life.

3. Describe the exercise and assessment process. What did you discover about yourself? What area have you chosen to be a focus of growth and development? Why? What are some specific exercises or activities that you can implement to foster greater wellness in this area?

I discovered that I need to seriously focus on myself – I always put others first and when I put myself first, there is guilt. Everyone around me says I am so strong.  I am really just a great pretender.  I need to be able to ask for help and support and find ways to deal with my own issues. I am working on my approach to my professional life and I am learning to set boundaries so I can reduce the impact work has on me.  I realize the work stress is unnecessary, but my psychospiritual part of my life needs work.

Part of this work involves paying it forward, I am speaking at two events – One is a vigil for victims of sexual assault who didn’t make it.  The other is a March for Sexual Assault Victim’s Rights.  It is scary, but I am lucky to have survived a very public case and I am thriving not just surviving.  If I can inspire just one person, then I am doing well in the world.

 

Dacher, E.S., (2006). Integral Health: The path to human flourishing. Laguna Beach, CA:

Blogs I responded to:

http://www.kaitlintakesonlife.blogspot.com/

http://yahweysinspirationalcoffeebreak.blogspot.com/2013/04/hello-everyone-love-kindness-exercise.html?showComment=1365406978596#c1260146910361790994


Friday, March 29, 2013

Unit 5 - Connecting mind body and spirit


Compare and contrast the Loving Kindness exercise and the Subtle mind exercise. Explain your experience including the benefits, frustrations etc.

Completing both the Loving Kindness and Subtle Mind exercises, I noticed that I was somewhat agitated as the speakers spoke.  I must admit I found the water sounds very relaxing.  As I stated before,  the  loving kindness exercise was challenging for me since I was sick and dealing with a head cold.  In retrospect, I was a bit self centered and   all I could think about was my own discomfort and all of the pressures I was dealing with in my own life.  In completing the subtle mind exercise,  I had a little more success but it was still a struggle.  The rushing water seemed to make my mind more calm but the voice of the narrator irritated me and caused a bit of chatter in my brain.  This may be because I feel like I suffer from noise “overload” at work and home.  I need quiet – not soft noise.  I work with 400+ young adults and teens and never have a moment’s peace.  The benefit of these exercises is that I am learning what works for me and tapping into the things I need to do to achieve a clear mind. 

Discuss the connection of the spiritual wellness to mental and physical wellness. Explain how the connection is manifested in your personal life.

Spiritual wellness is an integral tool to mental and physical wellness.  The three elements of wellness are interdependent .  When one  is missing, we are unbalanced.   According to Dacher (2006), it is virtually impossible to reach the subtle mind-body experience without development psychospiritually.

Meditation has become a way of life for me for over the past year. Practicing meditation is helping me developed my listening skills. My mind is clearer, and I make better decisions and accomplish things with more ease. The practice clears the confusion from my mind, assists with focus. This has directly affected my physical well being. When I integrate my swimming regimen, I receive a significant sense of renewal. and my overall mood is greatly improved.  Your emotional well being plays such a vital role in your physical energy.

Dacher, E.S., (2006). Integral Health: The path to human flourishing. Laguna Beach, CA:

Saturday, March 23, 2013

Unit 4 - loving kindness mental workout -

My post name is not as fun as I normally would use - but at least I know it can be easily found...


1.        Describe your experience. Did you find it beneficial? Difficult? Why or why not? Would you recommend this to others? Why or why not?
My experience with the Loving Kindness mp3 was challenging at best.  Partially because I have been fighting the flu all week  and have a terrible headcold,   partially because I cannot seem to relax enough to stay focused. When I started this class I was excited because I hoped this class would provide some magical answer to my inability to relax my mind.  So far, it’s been the opposite for me – causing me anxiety.  I would recommend the Loving Kindness to my son because he may benefit from it. Meditation and relaxation must be tailored to each individual.   In spite of my own personal experience, I am trying to stay open as it may help some of the people I work with.  I realize that each person is different and you have to find what works for them.
2.        What is the concept of "mental workout"? What does the research indicate are the proven benefits of a mental workout? How can you implement mental workouts to foster your psychological health?
A “mental workout” is exercising the mind  just like you would exercise your body.  Like physical fitness – mental fitness must be done on a consistent basis.  There is no magical pill.  Research shows that consistent daily practice will show proven results (Dacher, 2006).
I am slowly incorporating mental workouts into my daily life. Because of my chaotic lifestyle and schedule, I have found the best and most effective time for this is during my physical workout. My grandmother suffered from alzheimers. For me personally,   a healthy mind is more important than being physically fit.  If you have your faculties, you can do a better job making decisions that are right for your physical health.  Slow and steadily, I am trying to implement mental workouts in other parts of my life.  It is challenging but I am also starting to incorporate mental and emotional breaks in my work day.  Instead of imploding – I will take a walk to the beach (I work on the boardwalk and actually never see the ocean most days).  I realize that I need to take in the environment and appreciate the landscape where I work.  This allows me to return to my office and feel 100% better mentally and emotionally.  I deal with challenges much better after these mini breaks. 
I actually returned to school to increase my focus on my mental health.  I needed to do something just for me. 
Dacher, E. (2006). Integral health: The path to human flourishing. Laguna Beach, CA: Basic Health Publications, Inc.


Saturday, March 16, 2013

on the right path


Based on my honest reflections, I am far from my goal of optimal wellbeing.
On a scale of 1 to 10 I rate myself as follows:
Physical Wellbeing – 5
I have a lot of work in this area.  I am on the right path.  3 years ago I weighed in at 105 pounds overweight – morbid obesity.  Although I have lost 55 pounds to date  - I am still considered obese.  I feel 100% better – take much better care of myself – have improved my diet – but I know I am far from my goal of being a healthy weight.    I suffered from a fractured L5 and two ruptured discs as well as a myriad of other ailments.  In the past year – my pain is minimal and I listen to my body.  I still know that this is a life long journey for me to achieve physical wellness.

Spirit Wellbeing – 3
I am an infant on the path to spiritual wellbeing.  I have just begun to study Buddhism and this is helping me to become a more spiritually enlightenend being.  I work at this daily – it is hard sometimes to keep faith and not fall into old patterns.  The religion I was raised in contradicted my beliefs and I rebelled for years.

Psychological Wellbeing – 7
I have grown leaps and bounds in the past  two years.  I went through a critical period of time and my psyche was damaged beyond recognition.  I am finally starting to feel like myself – comfortable in my own skin. Connecting to people close to me – setting boundaries.  I suffer from PTSD and I have new ways to cope with it.  This past year I “came out” as a victim of sexual assault and have sat on a panel to help advocates understand victims.  This has been quite empowering.  I am still a work in progress but I am feeling shiny and new again.  My self-esteem is almost there – but I am more forgiving with myself when I mis-step.

   Develop a goal for yourself in each area (physical, spiritual, psychological).
Physical Wellbeing Goal – Get a minimum of 7 hours of sleep per night.  The sleep deficit directly impacts my workout, my outlook and my eating habits.
Spiritual Wellbeing Goal – Seek out guidance in others.  My journey so far has been solitary and it is important to open up to others for guidance.
Psychological Wellbeing Goals – Allow myself to be vulnerable – ask for help – I don’t have to go through things alone.

The exercise "The Crime of the Century" felt kind of silly - his voice is really annoying.  It's one of the reasons some people think of holistic wellness as quackery.  I know this not to be true - but nonetheless  - this was a waste of time for me.  Very melodramatic

Monday, March 11, 2013

NEW SCHOOL....UGH

So I was super excited about this new wellness class and then it happened - my first discussion question grade was a 76% - As childish as it sounds I am so disappointed.  Partially with myself and partially with the expectations for my FIRST discussion board post.  I had no idea that my discussion board post had to be based primarily on the class materials.  I am completely interested in the subject but honestly find the reading material a little DRY at best.  It's a struggle to read it at times. 

Not sure how I'll turn this one around.  For a first post - I think the criteria was a bit harsh!  So here I am instead of settling in and ramping up I'm stressing - hardly the way I thought this term would be.

Thursday, March 7, 2013

Monique - A Girl on the Verge...

My name is Monique and I made the decision to pursue my degree in Health and Wellness after a number of incidents and events that put me into a transition into a more positive healthier life.  In the past few years, after experiencing a number of traumas and tragedies, I decided to take control of my life.  I was fortunate enough to find a doctor who treated me from a holistic perspective.  I have started to think of my life as an amazing journey and this has made all the difference.  I falter, I have my challenges (I can be my own worst enemy) - but employing some of the things I've learned has helped. 

It is hard letting go of old habits and thought processes but I am determined more than ever to find balance and inner peace.  This is just one step in my process.

riding the wave....

I woke up yesterday with a sense of purpose - headed to the pool after the first half of a VERY stressful day.  I was running late but determined to still make it to the gym where I could regenerate and reflect on my day with a new and improved outlook.  I have this sense of entitlement as one of the only consistent "swimmers" at 24 hour fitness.  Much to my suprise there were swimmers in both lanes.  The man in my lane was a "lumbering" type of man or in plain terms a LANE HOG.  I tried to peacfully co-exist and hit the water with him but he wouldn't stay in his lane - he kept splashing and his arms hit MYside of the pool - I couldn't focus, I couldn't get into my groove - it caused a certain level of anxiety - I began to give him the stink eye each time he would pass me in the lane.  It felt like swimming in a choppy ocean with waves bouncing all over the place.

For the first time in months I wasn't queen of my domain.  I could not control my experience.  Eventually I left the pool - packed up my aqua equipment and headed over to the jacuzzi.  For the first five minutes I sat in the water and stewed at the man - each stroke was an annoyance to me and a reminder that I couldn't do what I wanted to - that he was somehow doing this on purpose to MAKE me leave the water.  To add insult to inury - he finished 6 minutes later.  Are you kidding me?  I  abandoned my workout just for him to finish his????

I then realized as he walked over to the shower - he was oblivious to me.  I wasn't even a consideration - he had no clue how annoyed I was or even that I had left because he was a TERRIBLE swimmer.  I had to laugh to myself.  I had put such importance on something and allowed someone else to ruin my moment.  My internal dialog was the source of my anxiety.  I headed over to the steam room and meditated for about 10 minutes - (realizing afterwards I probably annoy some of the people who go to the steam room) - I felt 100% better.  I needed to focus on me and what my issue was.

In short - for my own health and wellbeing - I have to learn how to RIDE the WAVE.  People will not always stay in their lane - they won't always be considerate and most times they are oblivious to the way they impact someone else.  I am working on this - day by day - moment by moment.  I realize this is my kryptonite. 

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

Today is the first day of my new session in pursuit of my goal to complete my degree in health and wellness.  I am excited and look forward to what this unit will discuss.